walks of life

i don't want to go

2011-03-31T14:14:00.003+08:00

oh my April is fast approaching and i'll be leaving the Philippines on the 12th. i already packed my things. and i am staring to be sad. i am going to Australia and i don't know when i am going back. i will be leaving everything HOME, FRIENDS, HEART. maybe i'll be good maybe. starting my life in Australia is kinda exciting, will be seeing new things, will be meeting new friends, will be doing a lot of new thing. but of course will be missing my HOME. i would love to blog about my trip and my new life in aussie. see you guys around. :)

my babies

2011-03-30T21:09:00.004+08:00

these are my puppies. they are colored black and white a cross breed of american Eskimo and Spaniel. they were given to me by my mom. they've been with me for 1 week already. i named them yin-yin and yan-yan because of their color and from YING-YANG.

but unfortunately they died now. i am deeply sadden of their death. i loved them so much already. and i know they are very well now. they'll be eating a lot of puppy treats and will be playing a lot. i never thought that our first visit to the vet will also be our last. they are scheduled to undergo deworming on sunday. but sadly this happened. yan-yan died last Monday. and then yin-yin died just this morning. i am really sad. i loved them so much. and i will miss them.

Bye yin-yan! i know you'll be taking care of me and will follow me like you always do.

these are my facebook status.

-bye yan-yan. you are such a sweet puppy. i wish you are happy now. eating a lot and playing a lot. thank you for making me happy. for waking me up every morning and keeping me awake late at night. will miss giving you sponge bath before sleep. i will never forget your sweetness and your "kakulitan" i loveu yan-yan. i will take care of yin-yin. he's sad that he won't be able to play with you anymore.

- yin-yin died just this morning. and i cried a lot. he is the closest to me because
he is my puppy. i miss him now. i miss waking up with his cries because he is so hungry. i miss him playing with me and following me around the house. i will miss feeding him with his favorite food and milk, giving him sponge bath after eating, i will be sad now alone in the house. he taught me alot of things. to wake up early, he gave me something to do. to takecare of him. i prayed that his tummy ache goes away. now it's gone and so is he. he is so smart. the first time i taught him to pee and make poo outside the house when he is done he walks home. i will definitley miss you baby yin i thought i'll get to see you grow up so we can play some more. i even wanted to teach you climb the stairs so you won't cry anymore when i go up. you are smart. and i will miss you. i am happy now that you won't feel your tummy ache anymore and you will see your yan-yan now.

i love you baby yin! i will miss seeing you around.

updating.

2011-03-22T21:18:00.002+08:00

it's been quite a while. how is everyone here on blogger?. been very busy these past few months, no time to update my blog. but i have a lot to share. NEXT MONTH i'll be leaving the Philippines to finally live with my parents in Australia. i am really not yet ready, it's going to be so hard. i mean this is where i grew up. this is HOME. and this is where MY HEART is. help me what to do. things are getting harder as it seems.

after a long while

2010-06-12T12:36:00.000+08:00

im baaaaccccckkkk!! i'm into blogging AGAIN hopefully.
lost my password just found that little piece of paper where i wrote all my passwords and usernames.. how's my linkies?.. : ) imma change my layout soon,, i'm just looking for some nice skin.. : )

global warming

2009-05-14T12:34:00.004+08:00

hey guys. finally i manage to update my blog.
been so busy doing things in my speech class..
actually i am finishing my speech about global warming, been looking and browsing the net for insights.. i came up to this cartoon site,, http://cagle.com/news/GlobalWarming07/main.asp where they illustrated their stand about global warming.. i'm going to share this cartoon.. and maybe we can help fight global warming by passing this around.. so im gonna pass this around in your blogs..
i'm a bit shy posting my speech here..

but it ends like this

"and so in order to fight global warming, we should start being a good example, then share it with our families, influence the neighborhood and together try to convince the whole nation that the earth is worth saving. the earth is our home, and during problems like this, we're all family
. make a stand. save the earth! fight global warming."

uhm?.. is it good?.. i really don't know if my use of grammar and words are right. i'm open to opinions.. i might post my whole speech after edits and maybe after i deliver it and most probably if i get a good grade..

oh don't forget to pass the tag around. . :)
thanks..

See Cartoons by Cartoon by Monte Wolverton - Courtesy of Politicalcartoons.com

2009-01-25T21:43:00.004+08:00

I AM VERY BUSY TO UPDATE SORRY GUYS.. :)
I'LL MAKE IT UP SOON.. :)

uhm im posting this one coz it made me cry.. not to much though,, this was sent to me by a friend through e-mail..

When you were 8 years old,
your mom handed you an ice cream.
You thanked her by dripping it all over your lap.

When you were 9 years old,
she paid for piano lessons.
You thanked her by never even bothering to practice.

When you were 10 years old,
she drove you all day, from soccer to football to one birthday party after another.
You thanked her by jumping out of the car and never looking back.

When you were 11 years old,
she took you and your friends to the movies.
You thanked her by asking to sit in a different row.

When you were 12 years old,
she warned you not to watch certain TV shows.
You thanked her by waiting until she left the house.

When you were 13,
she suggested a haircut that was becoming.
You thanked her by telling her she had no taste.

When you were 14,
she paid for a month away at summer camp.
You thanked her by forgetting to write a single letter.

When you were 15,
she came home from work, looking for a hug.
You thanked her by having your bedroom door locked.

When you were 16,
she taught you how to drive her car.
You thanked her by taking it every chance you could.

When you were 17,
she was expecting an important call.
You thanked her by being on the phone all night.

When you were 18,
she cried at your high school graduation .
You thanked her by staying out partying until dawn.

When you were 19,
she paid for your college tuition, drove you to campus carried your bags.
You thanked her by saying good-bye outside the dorm so you
wouldn't be embarrassed in front of your friends.

When you were 25,
she helped to pay for your wedding, and she cried and told you how deeply she loved you.
You thanked her by moving halfway across the country.

When you were 50,
she fell ill and needed you to take care of her.
You thanked her by reading about the burden parents become to their children.

And then, one day,

she quietly died.

And everything you never did came
crashing down like thunder on YOUR HEART..

2009-01-24T22:22:00.002+08:00

i can't explain all the words he has spoken to my heart..
why i'd want him more, i don't regret choosing you..
and i'm not ashamed that it's you who holds my heart.. :)

2009-01-10T14:34:00.006+08:00

aww im bored.. while i was browsing the net a while ago i stumbled on yahoo's news about holywood's movie line up.. they were having great movies showing this year.. and this one really caught my attention.. the movie CORALINE by NEIL GAIMAN, i've watched the movie trailer on youtube, and it was great, i cannot wait for the movie. i have loved GAIMAN, his writings are great.. i have watched and read his STARDUST. and all i can say is that.. WONDERFUL!! great great.. i cannot wait to watch it, and i'm buying the book now which i used to ignore.. here's an excerpt of coraline..

coraline by neil gaiman - excerpt

coraline by neil gaiman - pictures

coraline by neil gaiman - movie trailer

just click on the links .. here are some cutie pictures..

2009-01-03T14:19:00.003+08:00

HAPPY 2009 everyone!!

i do not have any resolutions,, i am still thingking bout it.. :)
anyway.. GREEN is the color of the year.. and i xOo LURVE green but unfortunately my site is not xOo greeny.. i cannot find any layout which is green and which is my type..

the holidays was great,, i have celebrate it with my relatives, we used to be in our granny's house during holidays that's why "no updates".. hahaha..

i missed blogging.. yay im back !! :)

2009-01-02T16:06:00.006+08:00

a lot of thanks to RIYO for helping me with my codes.. :)
and to CARA for her xmas gift..

i am back.. it's been a while since my last post hahaha..
and i haven't greet you guys HAPPY HOLIDAYS.. :)
sorry for no replies.. :) i haven't updated any of my social network, blogs.. etc this holoday season.. coz i went on a vacation haha.. :) but enwei.. THANKS for your greetings..

smooches.. :)

2008-12-20T22:47:00.002+08:00

HELP!! aww no comments in the meantime.. you can use my tagbox where you can post comments.. can somebody help me please?.. i have a new layout as you can see guys.. but damn i cannot enable my comments.. can somebody teach me how to put the "enable comments" and the title of the post.. in my code?.. who knows HTML?.. please.. just send me an email aryt?.. thanks..

labyrinth_nice@yahoo.com

thanks thanks..!!

2008-12-13T17:10:00.002+08:00

a lot of thanks to louise for this wonderful gift ehe

i dont have xoo much time now for blogging coz i am too busy doing school works..

but anyway thanks guys for visiting my site though i do not update much..

anyways i'm wishing you all an advance merry christmas!!

i'll be on a vacation i dunno if there's an internet connection there hahaha

i'll be bringing my laptop though and if ever my aunt will be good to me she'll buy me a wireless connection hahaha.. :) muahmuah!!

edward cullen

2008-12-06T14:09:00.008+08:00

i so love edward cullen.. so gaga about him.. :)
i want a man like him.. he's so damn sweet..
i did not post anything bout him here until i've watched the movie..
and i xoo love the movie lines.. my fone is xo full of messages.. quotes from the movie.

i do not have the time reading the book so i decided to watch the movie first before reading..
aww im gonna read the it now..

stars and moon

2008-12-02T21:23:00.004+08:00

whoa.. last night the heavens smiles on us hehe.. i was traveling back home from bulacan to quezon city when i noticed the formation of the two stars and the moon,, it formed a smiling face.. i saw people went out of their house and took pictures of it.. while listening to the radio the dj's were also talking bout it and they said that it was venus and jupiter,, i recieved a lot of group messages saying look outside and look above to see the smiling moon and stars.. it was great really, it looked good especially in i was in the highway we stopped the car and took photos of it.. i saw a picture of it on the net.. and here it is.

for a larger view of the image click on this link..

http://picasaweb.google.com/laibcoms/Science#5274810148386593826

sad..

2008-11-29T13:59:00.003+08:00

tired.. emotionally and physically tired!!

im too lazy to make a post coz i dunno what to write..
then i came up to this one..

i miss him!! aww great.. and i haven't recieved any email from him
nor a text message..
while here i am logging everyday just to send emails..
it's making me feel that he doesn't miss me at all.

it's so damn making me tired and sick of waiting!!

arggghhh.. im sad, really sad.. that i might cry.

waiting is never easy.. but please don't make it too hard for me!

10 things.

2008-11-27T11:31:00.001+08:00

Here are certain things that you should never say to your girlfriend. Unless of course if your girl is a mind reader. Among the long list of things..
here are the top ten. GUYS PLEASE READ.. ehe..

1) “She’s So Hot”- No matter how hot the girl walking in front of you, never say this aloud. It is natural to look but don’t gawk and drool. Even if your girlfriend comments on that girl’s look, don’t feel that is it your duty to partake in the comment. She may know that you do look at girls but don’t make it so obvious about how you feel inside when you stare at them.

2) “My Ex Would Never Do This” – Never compare the old with the new. Your girlfriend believed you when you said that you have moved on so why bring the ex back. Making statements like this will only start an argument and rest assured your girl will be fretting and fuming. But can anyone really blame her.

3) “You friend is so stupid” – Name calling your girlfriend’s friends will not get you anywhere. If you want to keep things in a good way, respect her the way she respects you. Sometimes keeping mum about friends is a good thing even if you really know that the friend is taking advantage then maybe you can take your girl aside and explain things with examples, rather than just blame and pointing fingers.

4) “Why do you love me? I am not good enough for you”- Girls like men with confidence. If you make statements like this then it will be a total turn off. Even if you don’t feel so, acting like it will make you more the man she wants you to be. She will feed your ego and breed real confidence that ultimately ends with you becoming a better person.

5) “If you really loved me you would…” – Putting conditions on her love for you is really very low. Smart guys don’t stoop this low. Be a man and ask her straight. That will get you a lot closer to what you want than trying such pathetic statements.

6) “You are so like your mother” – That is a good thing isn’t it? Well not always. Women do fear at times turning into their mothers. So saying this is not really good. You don’t know what the outcome will become.

7) “I’m not in the mood” – Women can use just about any excuse to put off sex. But if a guy says that he is too tired or just not up for a go, it rattles the very foundation of the relationship. Women think men are sexual deviants with a voracious appetite and your refusing it means something is definitely wrong. She thinks that she is no longer your sex kitten and you definitely are seeing someone else.

8) "I don’t like the outfit you are wearing” – If she is wearing it, she happened to like it enough to spend on it. Making statements like this not only brings her taste into question but it also leaves you looking like a backward, silly man. If you find her outfit too revealing for your taste, you can always explain how you feel and what you think will look good on her. You can take her shopping and show her the clothes you like which you think will compliment her.

9) “What have you done to your hair? It’s awful” – Women like experimenting with their looks and sometimes they don’t turn out as they wanted to. Instead of vocalizing it and giving her funny looks, you can be nice to her. She could be upset too, seeing the end result. So consoling her will only make her love you more.

10) “Don’t get emotional now” – It doesn’t take much to get girls crying. So don’t snap at her when she is emotional or crying. It is best to explain things, help her wipe away her tears and give her a comforting hug.

WHAT MORE CAN I SAY?.. hahaha xoo true.

tagged..

2008-11-26T00:01:00.005+08:00

tenchu po sp00fed sa tag na ito.. :) yay kahit super kdarating lang cge blog agad..

10 things that makes me smile

1. a compliment (good ones shempre)

2. pag na appreciate yung ginawa ko.

3. pag kinakantahan ako ng sisiw ko. :)

4. pag nagsmile ang sisiw 100% mapapa smile na rin ako. :)

5. when i got high grades haha.

6. pag na daan si crush.

7. pag nakaalala magtext si sisiw.. :)

8. pag nangaasar..

9. pag mai binigay ka sakin mai kapalit na smile yun, kahit ano pa yan.. :)

10. xmpre pag kahit ano tungkol kay sisiw.. sure :) super smiley ako!

tantanan and now im giving this award to.. LOUISE, LIANNE, LULU and JHOICE

my boyfriend's EX..

2008-11-22T14:47:00.009+08:00

aww my whole body is really in pain.. we had a ladies night out last night.. im with my friends.. and my boyfriend's EX GIRLFRIEND.. ahaha.. she is nice yah yah.. we planned to go to club ascend because they are having this GUESS JEANS event, and ali(the ex girl) told me that she wanted to be a model so i invited her.. we're on the guest list.. but unfortunately.. hindi natuloy!! coz my tita wont let me go becasue its a long travel going to the fORT (taguig) just to have fun and party.. so instead we went to decades timog.. the nearest to my place.. we all went there and enjoyed the night.. at first i was really kinda hesitant to talk to ali but knowing that i am the only one she knows in the group syempre ayaw ko namang ma out of place sya samin.. i don't want her to feel that way especially with my company,, i don't want to hear any negative feedback from her.. so i became the uber friendly-girlfriend-of-her-ex hahaha!! the night was great .. and the crowd was boring hahaha.. i dun wanna go back to decades again amf.. BORING.. we'll try white ave next time.. harhar.. aww and after that we had our frappe at starbucks timog.. i had strawberries and cream. and i slept in the couch haha.. twas nice spending time with my friends and ali, my boyfriend's ex girl.. we had fun.. really. it was really great to know that somehow we can be friends after what happened.. aww hehe that part of the story?.. ill tell it next time.. but everything's my fault that's why they broke up.. amf.. but that was history what's important is that im nice to her and hoping that what she have shown me is true.. :) here are the photos.. for more,, check out my friendster account..

ME AND ALI

MY GIRLFRIENDS

PIXTURE :)

STARBUCKS TIMOG

sabbath day..

2008-11-16T14:12:00.003+08:00

aww i did not go to church today.. because i woke up late arghh..
and i did not keep my sabbath day holy *angels singing* hahar..
instead of reading my scriptures and saying a short prayer to start my day i went up and update my friendster profile which until now is not yet fixed.. "aba eh &*#$*#! friendster yan, nagmaintenance na ng isang buwan.. " i heared my sister saying haha..
i can't think of anything to write in here so ill just include my prayer .. :)

dear heavenly father,,

thank you for another night that passed, thank you for guiding me as i sleep last night. and as i woke up this day i thank you lord for a wonderful day that awaits me. i keep on thanking you for those wonderful blessings i am recieving.. for the gift of friendship, the gift of family, gift of love, faith and all of those which i possess. you are so great and i thank you for the sacrifice you made to save us all from our sins.. may you continue to guide our paths that we may walk the right direction towards your kingdom.. i promise to do thy will with a sincere heart.. not my will but thy will be done.. and this i humbly pray in jesus name amen..

once in a while let us not forget to thank our father for the things that we have.. i am not really a good person hehehehe but our father listens to those who call on him.. :)
aww.. i heared angels singing hahaha

blessed sunday everyone!

home alone

2008-11-15T16:45:00.003+08:00

always.. :) harhar it's always like this every weekend..
im alone and i have nothing but 300 pesos for my food hahaha
im getting used to it, if it's not my aunt's day off in her office, then she goes to bulacan to visit my lola.. and me? im left home with some money to buy myself a food..

so every weekend my greenwich friends delivers me something to eat.. yes i always choose to stay at home and call the delivery hotline than to go to the store myself... i am too lazy to do that! this saturday (as always every weekend this is what im ordering) i had greenwich special double size and a lasagna for lunch..

after eating i'll sit in my desk and face my pinky laptop..
whew.. nothing has changed harharhar.. im always like this every weekend.. but im enjoying it!
but i really miss hanging out with my boyfriend every weekend.. we used to spend our weekends together.. aww (teary eyed) hehe uhmm.. but anyway 9months to go we will be ating my pizza together again.. :) harhar smiley!!

but for now im enjoying my weekends alone.. :)

my idea of a perfect christmas..

2008-11-14T08:12:00.004+08:00

my idea of a perfect christmas..
IS TO SPEND IT WITH YOU..
in a party or dinner for two.. anywhere would do..
simple pleasures are made special too,,
WHEN THEY'RE SHARED WITH YOU..

my idea of a better christmas
is my wish coming true..
AND MY WISH IS THAT YOU'D LET ME SPEND..

MY WHOLE LiFE WITH YOU..

blogger award

2008-11-13T10:39:00.005+08:00

Thank you SELINA for this one..

Here are the rules:
1. Each blogger must post these rules.
2. Each blogger starts with ten random facts/habits about themselves.
3. Bloggers that are tagged, need to write ten facts about themselves. You need to choose ten people to tag and list their names.
4. Don’t forget to leave them a comment telling them they've been tagged and also to read your blog.

Now here are my ten Random facts:

1. i love rainy days.. each time it rains i go up to my room, stand by the window, and sing.

2. when i was a kid i used to sing in front of our fan.

3. i have this small pillow that i hug and rub in my nose every bedtime.. i cannot sleep without it.

4. i cannot sleep with lights on. any kind of light.

5. i love candy corner. i spend 300 pesos for a hundred gram of gummy worms, gummy bears and sunflower seeds.

6. i have made a photo album for my boyfriend and compiled all of his pictures, but too lazy to make one for myself.

7. one time i got really hungry and bought a family size pizza and consumed it all by myself.

8. i cannot work nor do anything till it's 9 in the morning. i am still too sleepy to get up.

9. fond of collecting trash (candy wrappers, old receipts, tissue papers with letters on it.. etc.) i keep them and write the date when it got it and i also include who gave it to me..

10. love writing.. i made a novel and love reading it.

and now i am giving this award to:

BLOOM, ADDY, BERRY, MEI, MERIE, ROK, NYANYA, RICHELLE, FLOR and PISHNGE .

BUSY..

2008-11-09T19:25:00.002+08:00

i haven't posted much this past few months sa dahilang busy ako sa school,, full load talaga at toxic ang schedule ng mga duty.. kaya po sorry sa mga hindi ko pa na post na aking mga ka exchange link, sa mga di ko pa na update ang mga link nila.. pasensya na po talaga..

babawi po ako at aayusin ang aking blog sa mga susunod na araw..

Thanks.. xiao!

past is past?..

2008-10-08T19:50:00.002+08:00

kung bibigyan ka ng pagkakataon na bumalik sa nakaraan papayag ka?

tanong yan sakin ng kaibigan ko isang araw na wala kaming mapagusapan..
tutal ang tagal ko na din hindi naka pag blog this is my chance to post something hehehe..

ang sagot ko sa tanong?.. OO.. bakit naman hindi?
masarap namang balikan ang mga nagdaan na sa yong buhay,
sabi nya sakin.. explain further daw..
sabi ko naman..
madami akong gustong balikan.. madami akong gustong maramdaman ulit..
madami akong gustong ayusin na hindi ko nagawa nuon dahil nga walang rewind ang buhay..
kaya bakit ko sasayangin ang pagkakataong magbalik sa nakaraan?
madami akong gustong hingan ng tawad..
madami akong gustong patawadin.. madami pero hindi ko nagawa.
kinalimutan ko na kasi lahat..
bawat araw para sakin panibagong tao ako
madami akong iniiwan sa kahapon.. kaya nga minsan nalulungkot ako dahil hindi ko na sila mabalikan pag naiwan ko na..
kung makakabalik kaya ako sa nakaraan magbabago kaya ang ngayon?
hindi ko alam.. walang sagot sa tanong ko.. siguro may mga bagay na sadyang dadaan lang at sadyang hanggang dun lang, hindi mo sila maisasama kung saan ka man patungo.. may mga bagay din naman na dumating na sadyang nadyan para samahan ka sa paglalakbay. . madami na akong namimiss napakadami ko ng nakalimutan..
madami ng nagbago, mabilis na kasi ang alon, kung hindi ako sasabay baka maiwan ako, baka malunod..

kung ano man ako ngayon siguro dahil na rin yun sa mga nangyari sa nakaraan ko.
may mga bagay din naman akong hindi kinalimutan.. may mga bagay na baon ko padin hanggang ngayon dito sakin.. yun yung mga bagay na naging dahilan kung pano ako nasaktan, kung pano ako sumaya at kung pano ako naging malakas.
mga bagay na kahit magpaiwan pilit kong sinama.

natapos ang usapan namin,, pero hanggang ngayon nagiisip pa rin ako.
pero wala na akong maalala.. kaya wala na rin akong maisulat dito.

Stardust

2008-09-13T15:01:00.003+08:00

special thanks to ate nina for lending me their dvd copy of the film, there was nothing to do so i tried watching it..

hey hey it was great.. i cried, i laugh and i fell in love with it..

scheming princess, wicked witches, flying pirates, celestial love and a pure heart of a hero all in magical land.. :) you better watch it.. i was no good in making reviews so i won't do any just watch the film it was worth watching.. and if you wanted to visit their site here's the link..
http://www.stardustmovie.com/

ixoo love it, actually it made me wanted to be a star.. :) lol

and oh im leaving you these movie lines..

Yvaine: You know when I said I knew little about love? That wasn't true. I know a lot about love. I've seen it, centuries and centuries of it, and it was the only thing that made watching your world bearable. All those wars. Pain, lies, hate... It made me want to turn away and never look down again. But when I see the way that mankind loves... You could search to the furthest reaches of the universe and never find anything more beautiful. So yes, I know that love is unconditional. But I also know that it can be unpredictable, unexpected, uncontrollable, unbearable and strangely easy to mistake for loathing, and... What I'm trying to say, Tristan is... I think I love you. Is this love, Tristan? I never imagined I'd know it for myself. My heart... It feels like my chest can barely contain it. Like it's trying to escape because it doesn't belong to me anymore. It belongs to you. And if you wanted it, I'd wish for nothing in exchange - no gifts. No goods. No demonstrations of devotion. Nothing but knowing you loved me too. Just your heart, in exchange for mine.

Yvaine: Are you tempted?
Tristan: Tempted, by what?
Yvaine: Immortality. Let's say it wasn't my heart. Not me. Just a star you didn't know.
Tristan: You seriously think I could kill anybody. Even if I could, I mean, everlasting life? I imagine it would be kind of lonely. Well, maybe if you had someone to share it with. Someone you loved. Then it might be different.

Narrator: They ruled for 80 years. But no man can live forever, except he who possesses the heart of a star, and Yvaine gave hers to Tristan completely. When their children and grandchildren were grown, it was time to light the Babylon Candle. [there is a flash of light from inside the royal quarters, the camera then pans up to the sky where two brighter stars have appeared]
Narrator: and they still live happily ever after.

are we human because we gaze at stars, or d we gaze at them because we are human?
do the stars gaze back? now that's the question..

for the first time..

2008-08-29T17:54:00.003+08:00

wahuoo!! for the first time..
sobrang busy kami diz past few weeks .. so today nag aya mag movie si marianne at charm.. hindi kasama talaga sa plan for today pero dahil natapos ang ward class namin ng 11pm at ang next orientation ay 3-4pm pa.. we decided na sa SM magpalipas ng oras.. ayun nga nagkaayaan manuod ng movie.. grabe i was hesitant.. dahil sa madami ng pirated ngayon at di lang yon ah? 12 in 1 na ang mga dVD ngayon.. soo parang nanghihinayang ako sa 120 pesos na gagastusin ko para lang kay richard at Kc.. pero somehow naisip kong wala naman akong tatambayan.. so for the first time eh nanood ako ng movie like that sa movie house!! yes it was my first time to watch a tagalog movie sa movie house kasi hindi naman nanunuod si louie ng mga ganun, ayaw nya mas type nia mga english movies.. kaya never din ako nagaya na manuod ng tagalog.. and its been a year ah bgo ako nknuod ulit grabe, nung last time ako nanuod ng movie kasama ko pa si louie.. but anyway iun nga.. the movie was nice.. ok na ung 120 kasi di lang ako kinilig, natawa din ako at naiyak so pwede na.. :) ioq mag bigay ng review bout it kasi di ako magaling dyan.. saka ioq mag kwento para di maasar ung mkkbasa ng post ko bago sila manuod.. *spoiler* hahaha..

sentiments..

2008-08-22T19:59:00.002+08:00

gusto ko lang ishare.. =)

"I didn't say that girls are perfect, coz we all know that it's not true, but why be unfaithful to her if she has always been true to you? - Tupac Shakur

"lahat naman ng tao sumeseryoso pag tinamaan ng totoong pagmamahal, yun nga lang hindi matibay para sa tempasyon." - Bob Ong

Women are like the police.. they can have all the evidence in the wolrd but they still want the confession.

And the award for the best lie goes to you
For making me believe that you could be
Faithful to me!
Don't tell me you're sorry cause you're not
And baby when I know you're only sorry you got caught - Rihanna

when someone cheated on you, there's only two questions to be asked.
"did you forget that you are commited? or you rememebr but you just didn't care?"

abortion..

2008-08-14T17:40:00.002+08:00

nagbasa ako at nagbura ng mga mail ko dahil sa dami ng laman nito,, halos nasa 1000+ na hindi pa kasama ang mga folders kaya naisip kong linisin,, ng mabasa ko ito.. na send ito sakin ng Mommy ko last 2006,, naiyak ako ng mabasa ko ito nuon,, naiyak ulit ako ng mabasa ito ngayon.. gusto kong ishare sa inyo..

Dear Mommy,

I am in Heaven now, sitting on Jesus' lap.

He loves me and cries with me; for my heart has been broken.

I so wanted to be your little girl. I don't quite understand what has happened.

I was so excited when I began realizing my existence.

I was in a dark, yet comfortable place. I saw I had fingers and toes.

I was pretty far along in my developing, yet not near ready to leave my surroundings.

I spent most of my time thinking or sleeping.

Even from my earliest days, I felt a special bonding between you and me.

Sometimes I heard you crying and I cried with you.

Sometimes you would yell or scream, then cry.

I heard Daddy yelling back.

I was sad, and hoped you would be better soon.

I wondered why you cried so much.

One day you cried almost all of the day. I hurt for you.

I couldn't imagine why you were so unhappy.

That same day, the most horrible thing happened.

A very mean monster came into that warm, comfortable place I was in.

I was so scared, I began screaming, but you never once tried to help me.

Maybe you never heard me.

The monster got closer and closer as I was screaming and screaming,

"Mommy, Mommy, help me please; Mommy, help me."

Complete terror is all I felt.

I screamed and screamed until I thought I couldn't anymore.

Then the monster started ripping my arms off.

It hurt so bad; the pain I can never explain.

It didn't stop. Oh, how I begged it to stop.

I screamed in horror as it ripped my leg off.

Though I was in such complete pain, I was dying.

I knew I would never see your face or hear you say how much you love me.

I wanted to make all your tears go away. I had so many plans to make you happy.

Now I couldn't; all my dreams were shattered.

Though I was in utter pain and horror,

I felt the pain of my heart breaking, above all.

I wanted more than anything to be your daughter.

No use now, for I was dying a painful death.

I could only imagine the terrible things that they had done to you.

I wanted to tell you that I love you before I was gone, but I didn't know the words you could understand.

And soon, I no longer had the breath to say them; I was dead.

I felt myself rising. I was being carried by a huge angel into a big beautiful place.

I was still crying, but the physical pain was gone.

The angel took me to Jesus and set me on His lap.

He said He loved me, and He was my Father. Then I was happy.

I asked Him what the thing was that killed me.

He answered, "Abortion. I am sorry, my child; for I know how it feels."

I don't know what abortion is;

I guess that's the name of the monster.

I'm writing to say that I love you and to tell you how much I wanted to be your little girl.

I tried very hard to live.

I wanted to live. I had the will, but I couldn't; the monster was too powerful.

It sucked my arms and legs off and finally got all of me.

It was impossible to live.

I just wanted you to know I tried to stay with you. I didn't want to die.

Also, Mommy, please watch out for that abortion monster.

Mommy, I love you and I would hate for you to go through the kind of pain I did.

Please be careful.

Love,

Your Baby Girl

Happy Monthsary. .

2008-08-12T16:58:00.002+08:00

1 year and 9 months.. :)

i'm looking forward to spend my entire life with you.. :)
i want you to be the last person i'll see before goin to sleep,
and the first whenever i wake up in the morning. :)

i xoo love you .. and u'll never know how much, unless you spend your entire life with me.. ^__^

not just for a lifetime but till eternity..

"I'm not asking for too much,, just stick around.. F0RevER"

duty..

2008-08-07T22:38:00.002+08:00

amp nakakapagod.. sobrang pagod ako sa duty namin.. PM shift ang duty ko so 3pm-11pm yun hala sobrang hagard eh.. kaawa pa mga patient na na handle ko.. minsan di ko alam pano maging therapeutic sa harap ng patients kung sakin nagsisimula ang drama.. naisip ko nga kung sakali ako ang may hawak ng patient na kung saan may nakalagay sa chart na DNR (do not resuscitate) iniisip ko kung skaling sa time ko natapat na nag hingalo yung patient eh baka ako pa unang mataranta at maiyak.. ayokong makakita ng malungkot na scene eh.. pero walang choice, sa ospital sagana sa ganun.. naalala ko nung duty ako sa ER. naabutan ko sa duty yung matanda na lalaki, 50-50 na sya, nandun yung relatives yung anak saka yung asawa, nakita ko ng irevive sya.. ngkagulo sa ER narinig ko nanaman yung "DR's CART TO EMERGENCY ROOM PLEASE.." pati ikaw matataranta kasi makikita mo yung mga DR na tumatakbo papunta sa patient.. pero time nya na siguro kasi di na kinaya ng mga DR na ibalik yung heartbeat nya.. nakita ko yung reaction ng anak habang palabas ng ER papunta sa mama niya..

mama: ano na?

anak: wala na, sige na dun ka muna sa tabi

mama: (maluha luhang pumunta sa gilid)

kahit wala siyang masyadong sinabi nakita ko sa mukha nya yung lungkot talaga, hindi ko maipaliwanag yung reaction nya, pigil yung luha pero gusto nyang umiyak.. naawa ako, hindi ko alam kung ano yung mga tamang salita para sabihin.. siguro sa mga pagkakataong ganun mas mabuti yung tumahimik..

sabi sakin ng patient ko kahapon, "sigurado pagtapos nyo magaabroad ka na noh?"

ako: naku hindi po.

relative: bakit malaki sweldo dun ha?

ako: naku kahit malaki sweldo mas masarap alagaan ang mga kalahi mo, masarap alagaan ang pilipino..

uhmm. di ko na sasabihin yung mga iba pa namin napag usapan para sa respeto ko sa mga ibang lahi na nagbabasa ng blog ko hehehe peace!! =)

nakakapagod mag duty pero masaya, iba yung saya na naibibigay ng ngiti ng mga patient mo.. at syempre iba yng saya pag may konting pabuya na inabot sayo ahahahaha tulad ng orange, chocolate at iba pang prutas at pagkain na hindi nila pwedeng kainin kaya binibigay nalang sayo.. so far wala pang cash, but im looking forward to that ahahaha..

sa ngayon matutulog muna ako... kailangan ko ng madaming ganun kasi next week Night shift naman ako,, 11 ng gabi until 7 ng umaga duty ko, goodluck! mag babaon ako ng madaming kwento, pagkain at isang jacket para masarap ang tulog sa area hahaha.. :)

it's institute day..

2008-08-01T22:01:00.004+08:00

it's friday and it's my intsitute day.. it' my first time ever ha na mag travel from school to morayta, nagtanong ako ng 500 times yata sa mga friends ko kung pano pumunta dun(FEU GYM) from our school, di pa ako nakapunta sa insti ng galing sa school kasi kaya di ko alam.. hmmpff.. but anyway i got there safe and sound..

though i was 25minutes late hehe nakasabay naman ako sa lesson, sad nga lang kasi baka di pa ako makabalik ulit dun, i have my duty na this finals at hagard na ang mga next months.. kinausap ko si bishop para mabigyan ako ng make up class kasi ayaw ko mag seat in sa ibang class at ayaw ko lumipat ng time.. ayun ok naman ang kinalabasan..

at shempre pa, hindi mawawala ang foods sa labas ng insti i xoo love that place my first time to get there ang binili ko rice in a box, siomai at cotton candy.. and i was able to take a picture of my food before i ate them..

si bojie kinakain yung siomai ko.. :(

what we had today.. i dunno ano tawag dito, pero gawa sya sa patatas na deep fried, tapos irroll sya sa either sour cream, cheese or barbecue flavor.. mine was at the middle yung nasa left kay jr at yung nasa right side naman ay yung kay elvan.. i xoo love too eat.. sabi nga sakin ni JR "san mo ba linalagay yang kinakain mo?" sabi naman ni Bea "ano bang alaga mo dyan sawa?" haha naka dalawang balik ako sa siomai so 6pcs lahat at 2 buko din, 1 mangga, 1 potato stick at 1 popcorn bago kami umuwi.. ang sarap kumain eh.. :)

i love to eat.. yummy.. :)

at shempre pwede ba naman mawala ang all time favorite ko? SIOMAI!! :)

we had our fireside with Elder Won Yong Ko.. he shared a great talk.. but before that shempre picture picture muna :) sayang wala si mars ska si sigrid,, huhu baka matagal bago ko sila makita ulit kasi duty ko na. . i'll miss them.. sabi nila mamimiss nila ako, at ako sobrang mamimiss ko sila ng bonggang bongga. kung sana ka church ko nalang sila hehe..

Bea, Badet and Me

center of my life..

2008-07-31T16:45:00.003+08:00

i xoo love this song..

Let my walk speak loud
And my words be true
Let my life be whole
With my eyes on you
Lord I'm stepping out
From the comfort zone
Letting go of me,
Holding onto You
Freedom comes When I call You Lord

You are Lord my God
You are the centre of it all,
The universe declares in awe
Your majesty
I surrender all
I make you The centre of my life
Lord, I respond with all I am
you placed in me the song
Of heavens melody
Your Majesty I live to sing Your song

I have found Your peace
It replaces any fear
You have done it all
I can trust in you
So I'm stepping out From the comfort zone
Letting go of me Holding onto you
This is your song not mine
It is your song that bring healing to this land
This is your song not mineIt is your song that brings feedom
Freedom comes, when I call you Lord
Freedom comes, when I call you Lord
You are Lord, my God
You are the song You are the majesty
I live to sing your song
Your majesty I live to sing Your song

nalulungkot ako..

2008-07-25T19:44:00.004+08:00

Bakit ako malungkot? hindi ko din alam.. basta nalulungkot ako..
minsan kahit madaming tao ang nandyan para sayo, pag mag-isa ka nalang parang iniwan ka na ng buong mundo,, maiisip mo na madami naman nandyan, pero lahat sila malayo pag mag isa ka, ni wala manlang nag abalang sumama sayo.. at yung tao na kailangan mo ni hindi mo maramdaman. nakakainis. kasi sa tuwing hahanapin mo sila wala kang makita.

wala akong ginawa maghapon pero napapagod ako.. hindi man yung katawan ko,
pero pagod na pagod yung puso at isip ko,, kahit sana isa manlang sa kanila nakatulog ng maayos para madamayan yung isa, kaso hindi, pareho silang tulog, habang ako ito linalabas na naman sa pag blog yung mga pag aarte at pag sisintir ko..

naiintindihan ko.. hindi ko naman kailangan ng mga paliwanag at hindi ko rin hinihingi yun.
naiintindihan ko.. yun lang naman ang dapat at yun lang ang kaya kong gawin.. ang intindihin lahat. at kahit minsan hindi ko naiintindihan pinipilit ipaintindi sakin ng isip ko na yon ang dapat.

ang hirap minsan kasi wala kang magawa, ang hirap sundin ng puso pag saliwa yung sinasabi ng utak.. lalong gumugulo pag nagtatalo na silang dalawa..

minsan kulang lang ako sa pansin, babae ako natural na mag inarte at mag emote ako paminsan minsan. walang kwenta itong post ko.. alam ko na walang laman.. at alam ko na pagsisimulan na naman ito ng isang mahabgang usapan.. hay kaya mananahimik muna ko ng ilang linggo para ikaw naman ang makaramdam ng lungkot ko. :(

thanks camz for understanding.. and for being there. :) buti ka pa.

being a nurse..

2008-07-24T17:10:00.002+08:00

Being a Nurse isn't about grades.
It is about being who we are.
No book can teach you how to cry with a patient.
No class can teach you how to tell a family that their parents have died or dying.
No clinical instructor can teach you how to find dignity in giving someone a bed bath.

A nurse is not about the medications, or the charting.
It's about being able to love people when they are at their weakest moments..

whoa saludo ako sa mga NURSE!!

and soon,, ggraduate din ako, tatawagin ko din ang sarili kong NURSE..

on waiting. .

2008-07-22T19:10:00.003+08:00

magrereview na sana ako pero i was bothered sa tanong ng friend ko "why are you still waiting for him? what if hindi nyo na gusto ang isa't-isa pag balik nya?".
ewan ko paano ko sya sasagutin sa paraang maiintindihan nya at hindi sya mag rereact na ikagagalit ko. hehehe parang ang hirap ipaliwanag ng isang bagay na dapat siguro eh nararamdaman nya muna, mahirap na iba iba kasi tayo,, pero nasagot ko naman sya ng maayos ng walang duguan ni isa samin..

why am i still waiting?
una sa lahat ayaw ko ng naghihintay, ayaw ko kasi ng umaasa.. maikli kasi ang pasensya ko, baka hindi ko matagalan.. ayaw ko din ng naghintay nga ako pero nauwi naman sa wala..
pero kung ano nga yata ang ayaw natin yun ang binibigay satin, katulad nalang ng pagtatanong sayo ng nanay mo kung anong gusto mong ulam, at sasagot ka ng ayaw ko ng gulay, pero bago kapa nya tanungin eh nailuto na nya yung ampalayang binili nya. hindi dahil walang choice, kundi para matutunan mong kainin ang ayaw mo. ganun din sakin.. ayaw kong naghihintay kaya eto ang binigay sakin para matuto.

what if hindi na namin gusto ang isa't-isa pag balik nya?
ewan ko, hindi mo nga naman masasabi yun diba .. pero ang pamatay kong sagot..
TRUST keeps our relationship going.. haha ang panget para kong nag eendorse ng commercial sa TV ah?.. pero yun ang tunay. tiwala lang. isa pa kung may pundasyon na ang isang relasyon mahirap na tong sirain, kaya nga tulad ng isang bahay nagsisimula lahat sa framework,may bakal tapos may semento .. yung mga sumunod hindi ko na alam dahil hindi pa ako nkakagawa ng bahay. pundasyon diba? paunti unti at habang tumatagal lalong tumatatag.. kaya ganun din pag nagmahal ka.. isa pa hindi naman parang polvoron lang ang buhay pag-ibig.. *ayun eh* na pag tagal eh hindi mo na gusto kasi luma na lasa at iba na yung kulay ng pinang balot na papel de hapon,, para yang alak ika nga nila habnag tumatagal lalong sumasarap.. hehehe..

pagtapos ng lahat ng sinabi ko naintindihan na nya pero ng comment pa din sya na kung sa kanya mangyayari yung ganito eh hindi sya papayag na maghintay at hahanap nalang daw sya ng iba.. sabi ko naman ... "OK." yun lang at natapos na ang usapan na inabot din ng isang oras, hindi ko lang kasi isinama dyan yung usapan namin tungkol sa skinny jeans na kulay green, hairstyle, fried siomai at kung ano pang kaartehan na mabibili sa divisoria ng murang mura..

tapos naisip ko bigla. .

kung sumagot nalang ako ng "eh kasi mahal ko siya talaga at ano bang paki alam mo kung naghihintay ako? apektado ka ba?! eh di maghintay ka din samahan mo ko para enjoy.. wag mo na nga akong pakialaman next time okay ba yun? wala ka namang alam sa nararamdaman ko eh."

eh di sana di na umabot ng isang oras yung pag uusap namin at ng nakapag review na ako hahaha pastilan!!

happiness..

2008-07-17T20:22:00.008+08:00

" We are all capable of making ourselves happy, but happiness is somewhat different when someone else did it for us. . it's much sweeter" ♥

katatapos ko lang basahin yung e-mail sakin ng sisiw ko naiyak ako at natawa. . kahit nagdadrama na sya comedy padin. . namiss ko na tuloy ang sisiw ko, namiss ko na yung mga madalas namin gawin, puntahan, lahat lahat.. yung mga kwento naming kahit paulit ulit di namin pinagsasawaan.. masaya ko ng sobra na malamang kahit malayo sya sakin, wala pa ding nagbabago.. meron pala.. kasi mas mahal ko na sya ngayon.. nakakatuwang isipin na may isang tao na pwede mong sabihan ng lahat ng bagay tungkol sayo, tao na pwede mong kausapin tungkol sa kahit saan.. tao na makakapagpasaya sayo kahit sa mga simpleng bagay na ginagawa nya.. ang sisiw ko sobrang love ko yan.. sya lang kasi yung nakakaintindi sakin *twit* pareho kasi kaming sisiw.. sya lang yung nakakapag paiyak sakin dahil sa sobrang saya.. minsan darating din pala yung time na magmamahal ka ng sobra na wala ka ng mahihiling pa.. wala ka ng gusto pa, tapos magiging favorite song mo yung Angels Brought me Here saka yung I Could Not Ask For More.. grabe yung tipong kahit bumagsak sa harapan mo si orlando bloom, brad pitt at johnny depp eh wala kang pakialam kasi magkasama kayo ng mahal mo?.. ang korni pero totoo diba?.. pag mahal mo talaga kahit lumuha pa silang tatlo dugo, sa kanya ka lang talaga.. ako ganun.. kaya kahit minsan nandidiri na rin ako sa sarili kong kakornihan eh ayus lang, ganun talaga pag nagmamahal eh diba?.. nagbabago ka para sa taong mahal mo..

alam ko madami akong dapat matutunan kaya ko nakilala ang sisiw ko.. madami kasi syang naituro sakin.. minsan pag narerealize mong nagbabago ka na para sa isang tao.. malalaman mo na kung bakit kayo pinag kilala.. madalas para may maituro kayo sa isa't-isa.. lahat ng tao na dumadaan sa buhay natin may reason kung bakit yan napadaan..

napadaan man ang sisiw ko o hindi, kung may dapat ba kong matutunan sa kanya o wala, basta alam ko sakin na sya..

"wala ng bawian god ha? hehehe sige na? promise magpapakabait na ako, iaabot ko na yung mga bayad ng pasahero sa jeep pag ako yung naupo malapit sa dulo.. hindi ko na pagtatawanan si mumhai at makikinig na po ako sa lesson ni Agatom.. basta wag mo na po babawiin ang louie ko sakin nalang po sya, promise aalagaan ko nmn sya eh.. papakainin ko din ng bulate pag nagutom, saka paiinumin ko ng gamot pag nasisipon.. ha?.. thank you po kasi nasakin sya.. amen"

minsan kaya ako ngpapakabait para di sya bawiin sakin, para bang candy gagawing suhol sayo ng nanay mo para lang matulog ka sa tanghali, o kaya para di kana maiyak habang busy sya sa pamimili ng damit mo sa department store kung saan sya lang ang nageenjoy. minsan ganun din iniisip ko kaya nasakin si louie ngayon, nagiging bad kasi ako minsan kaya merong sisiw para magbait ako.. hehe hay basta ang alam ko masaya ako.. yung nararamdaman ko higit pa sa tinatawag na happiness, glad, overwhelmed, flabbergasted.. o kung ano ano pa.. ewan ko kung ano tawag dun.. at ioq isipin baka mapagod lang ako imbis na masaya na eh..

minsan napapakanta nalang ako..

It takes a lot to know what is love
It's not the big things but the little things
That can mean enough
A lot of prayers to get me through
And there is never a day that passes by
I don't think of you. .

You showed me how to love
You showed me how to care
And showed me that you would always be there
And I'm proud to say you're mine. .

It's Nanay Carmen's Birthday..

2008-07-16T18:26:00.000+08:00

aww Birthday ngayon ni Nanay.. ang mama ni sisiw kuh.. i dunno what to give her.. kanina nagtext sya sakin.. iniinvite ako manood sa Araneta *big dome* ng Highschool Musical.. *uhm yun nga ba? hehehe* pero sad to say.. hindi ako nakasama,, i wasn't able to celebrate with her.. kainis nasa school pa kasi ako.. but anyway.. She's a nice woman, hehehe xmpre i'm super thankful to her kasi sya nag give birth sa sisiw ko hehe.. louie's family is xoo nice.. wula kuh msabi.. i remember when Nanay asked me kung ano daw ba gusto ko itawag sa kanya.. natawa kami pareho kasi baka daw maudlot pa pag Nanay na tawag ko sa kanya.. hehe,, i'm very thankful to her, for making me feel na part ako talaga ng family nila.. hehe..

Happy Birthday .. *though hindi nya ito mababasa hehe*

maulan..

2008-07-15T15:29:00.000+08:00

wala akong magawa.. kaya eto binibisita ko yung mga blog na nadadaanan ko..

ang lamig para akong nagaaply sa call center at typing test na, naninigas na mga daliri ko hehe *kasi nmn nkatapat pala electric fan sakin db?* ano nga bang maganda ikwento pag naulan?
aww nalulungkot lang ako, dati madalas ako magsulat pag umuulan, pero ngayon di na masyado gumagana isip ko.. sobrang lamig kasi.. di nagagamit ang utak pag masyadong malamig. . naapektuhan ba ang hypothalamus na syang thermo regulator.. hala san ko nmn nakuha yun?.. nahawa na ako kay agatom, pati may flight of ideas na ko ah?.. cge papakilala ko nalang si Agatom CI namin ito, gwapings talagang matalino pero di maarok ng utak ko yung mga words that's coming out of his mouth hello kaya nga ako nagaaral para matuto hindi para pasikatan nya ng kung anong alam niya db?.. bibong bata nakalimutan na dapat eh ineexplain nya kung ano man yung sinasabi nya.. teka baka mabasa nya tong blog ko yari ako.. baka sa hirayamanawari pa ako mpadpad.. uhm bakit agatom? kasi ginagawa nyang sineskwela ang class namin.. hamakin mo? ang layo ng nararating namin mula sa cell.. magkaka acid-base imbalance ako sa kanya eh... kaya para di mangyari yun tinutulugan ko sya, ang sarap matulog sa classroom kasi aircon tapos maulan,, kulang nalang kumot saka unan parang nanonood na talaga ko ng sinekwela.. minsan nga napapakanta pa ako.. haha ang mean.. baka mamayang gabi may ma ishare na akong kapakipakinabang dito sa blog ko.. oh xa.. ingat.

Sunday. .

2008-07-13T10:04:00.001+08:00

it's sunday.. later i'll be going to church.. hehehe sure i will be blessed.. i was the assigned speaker.. to give a talk on what are the ways to stay active in church..
hmmm... madami.. at thanks kay kuya nats, ate ritchel and ate nina.. for some advices.. and aside from that relief society teacher din akoo.. pwede din nila ko kunin guest speaker sa young women, at opening prayer sa SA class hehehe..

gabi na ako nakauwi mga 11 na kagabi.. pinakain kasi ako nila ate ritchel sa kanila hehe ng adobo.. at pag nandun talaga ako di ko mapigilang matawa.. grabe para akong nasa circus pag nadun ako.. hehe well..

keep holy the sabbath day pero di ko mapigilan magkwento at mag comment back sa mga taong nag comment sakin.. hehe thank you po xenyo..

have a safe and blessed sabbath.

happy monthsary.. sisiw

2008-07-12T12:26:00.000+08:00

1year and 8months..
haha nalito nq sa pagbibilang alam mo ba yun sisiw?.. but anyway hehe we've been together na pla for quite a looong time.. at very much thankful ako for having you.. you're a wonderful blessing.. and i love you xoo much..

"Choose a companion of your own faith, you are more likely to be happy.
Choose a companion you can always honor, you can always respect, one who will compliment you in your own life, one to whom you can give your entire heart, your entire love, your entire allegiance, your entire loyalty. "
-Pres. Gordon B. Hinckley Counsel

you are one great companion.. and thank you xo much for that..
i love you ilove you..
i intend to keep you not just only for a lifetime,, but for eternity.. =)

happy monthsary!

nakakapagod..

2008-07-07T19:23:00.000+08:00

nakakapagod.. kung iisipin ko kung saan ako napapagod? ewan hindi ko alam.. basta napapagod na ako. ang hirap ayusin ng mga bagay na talagang magulo na.. pag sinubukan mong ayusin mas magugulo pa.. minsan pinipilit kasi natin yung mga bagay na hindi dapat.. hindi ko alam kung bakit ang emote ko.. pero wala ako sa mood..

"kung magmamahal ka ng taong hindi dapat, at nasaktan ka wag mong sisihin ang puso mo.. tumitibok lang yan para magsupply ng dugo sa katawan mo, Ngayon kung magaling ka sa Anatomy at ang sisisihin mo naman ay ang Hypothalamus mo na kumokontrol sa emotions mo, mali ka pa rin..bakit? Utang na loob!! wag mong isisi sa Body Organs mo ang mga sama ng loob mo sa buhay! tandaan mo! magiging masaya ka lang kung matututo kang tanggapin na hindi ang Puso, Utak, Atay o Bituka mo ang may kasalanan sa lahat ng nagyayari sayo kundi ikaw mismo! "

ok na ok si pareng BOB sa sinabi nya..

ewan ko ba natauhan na ako bigla, dala lang siguro ito ng inis ko kay Agatom dahil ginawa nyang sineskwela ang class namin.. napapakanta nalang tuloy ako.. "tayo na sa sineskwela lalalala..

on my way to lola's house..

2008-07-06T21:19:00.000+08:00

side view of the sta.rita exit.. while paying the toll fee.. hehe

Me and Chan.. before we left the house.

aren, chan, enzo, Me and carl.. kwentong pinsan.. hehe

yana ng nanyari ngayong sunday,, di naka simba pero mai baon akong pictures,, spaghetti at iba pang food from my abuela hehe..

a not xoo typical sunday morning..

2008-07-06T09:31:00.000+08:00

aww.. nagising ako sa init kasi wala kaming kuryente, hay ewan ko ba kung bakit sa tag init nawawalan ng kuryente.. hay *pawisan*.. oh ito ang first time kong magpost sa tagalog ha? hehehe natututo na.. i was inspired sa mga blogs na nakita ko na ang ganda ng mga post hehe.. o xa tama na yun..

Sunday ngayon at 1pm ang sacrament meeting sa church.. hindi ko malaman pano uubusin ang oras ko, kaya heto nandito na naman ako sa harap ng laptop ko *buti nalang nagcharge ako* hehe.. pag tapos ng sacrament eh may practice kami ng choir, *not xo typical..* shempre 1st time,, sa araneta kaya ang venue panong di ako mapipilitan sumali hehe.. NicE one.

.. nakakainip di ko malaman pano paptayin ang oras..
.. nakakamiss wala kasi si LOUIE ayan tuloy kausap ko nanaman sarili ko.. hay
.. nakakalungkot wala akong kasama dito sa bahay at talagang mainit.. ang cellphone ko 3 nga lowbatt naman lahat.. gusto ko ng magsimba *makikicharge ako* hahaha

..mainit!! at hindi ito isa sa mga typical na Sunday ng buhay ko.. waaaahhhh!!

2008-07-04T20:06:00.000+08:00

here by me..

2008-07-03T21:41:00.000+08:00

I hope you’re doing fine out there without me'
Cause I'm not doing so good without you
The things I thought you'd never know about me
Were the things I guess you always understood
So how could I have been so blind for all these years
I guess I only see the truth through all this fear of living without you

And everything I have in this world
And all that I'll ever be
It could all fall down around me
Just as long as I have you right here by me

I can’t take another day without you'
Cause, baby, I could never make it on my own
I've been waiting so long just to hold you
And to be back in your arms where I belong
I'm sorry I can't always find the words to say
But everything I've ever known gets swept away
Inside of your love

As the days roll on I see
Time is standing still for me
When you’re not here
I’m sorry I can’t always find the words to say
Everything I’ve ever known gets swept away
Inside of your love

thank god you are mine..

2008-06-28T17:52:00.000+08:00

I thank God you are mine
(06:13pm-062708)

You are my weakness, my sense of security
Of all the blessing HE had given me
You’re one of those I thank HIM the most

Life has never been good to some
But my life I enjoy the most because you are mine

You are my every prayer
The joy of my heart
You are every word I speak
You’re every tear in my eyes.

You are the star in my night sky
The moon that shines so bright
And as I wake up every single day of my life
I thank God that you are mine.

Life with you is what I dream the most
I know forever isn’t too far coz you’re holding my hand
And as I look into your eyes,
I know that eternity is never that far
It’s just a step away coz together we walk and will never part.

To have and to hold I am promising you
I am taking you for what you are
All of the blessings we shall share
All the trials we will face together.

I know I was born to love only you
Until we get old and die..
And till we meet again in heaven
I will forever be grateful
I will forever be thankful
That God made you to be mine.

SouLmate. . =)

2008-04-27T21:11:00.000+08:00

Louie,

I can't find the right words to say. . xoo just keep on reading aryt?

*May nagawa ba akong masama

Nakasimangot ka na dyan

baka nagselos ka na naman

di ka na ngumingiti

Di ka ba nagsasawa dyan mahabang paliwanagan

Wag ka nang magalit,

wag ka nang masungit

Sinasabi ko naman sayong

Ikaw lang talaga at wala nang iba

Alam kong makulit ako,

iyon ang nakikita mo

Pero di mo ba alam sa'yo lang ako naging seryoso

Kahit pa si Piolo o si Sam ang nariyan...

Promise ko sayo di ko sila titignanKaya...

Kasi ang totoo nyanIkaw lang talaga at wala nang iba!

*Habambuhay,

ikaw at ako ang magkasama

Sa hirap at ginhawa

Habambuhay,

sumpa ko’y ikaw lang walang iba

Pangako ko pag-ibig koy iyong iyo

Saan man makarating, ikaw lang ang mamahalin

Mawalay man sa piling ko, di magaalala, Pagka’t pangako mo tayo habambuhay

my everdearest 3J4. .

2008-04-26T12:37:00.000+08:00

aww ioq mgdrama nmn oh. .
pero this post was inspired by eka's multiply blog post..

you know what j4?..
at first ioq talaga sa sec.J kc ung buong section dq kilala, i mean nsanay ako sa mga sections q before na super bonding, sa sec.J iba. . na realize ko na college nga aq at wlng permanent nrreshuffle ang sections at iun . .

pero nakilala ko ang J4, malay pero B ang surname ko J4 aq haha. .
bwat araw gusto ko duty nlng, kc kau nkksundo ko, naging happy iung 2nd sem ko dahil sa inyo.

hndi man natin maiiwasan ung mga petty quarrels, inisan, plastikan, asaran at harutan . . atleast naging totoong mga tao tayo!!

"u cant please everybody" ika nga ni dixie
sbay sagot ni lyn ng "ai naku wala kong pakialam dyan"
"ayusin nio na nga please" sabi nmn ni jessa
"eh wag mo nga pagsamahin dahil ke yaput to" sabi ni eka
"ai nako J4, ai nako tlga" inis ni loren
"hui ah ung related lit." singit ni midori
sbay sabi ni steven "ano may pabibili ba kayo?"
"sa bahay nalang namin" sagot ni gyzelle
"cge sandali lang may puntahan lang ako" alis ni reicyn
"ay hindi ako ppyagan ng tita ko" sagot ni donna
"hay nako tama na yan picture nalang tayo game" sabi ni camille

"ai naku ewan ko ba bakit ako J4 bwisit! ang aarte" hahaha shempre pangaaway ni
bernice

hahaha hoy donna sana iupload mo na nag mga picture db?..
i will miss you J4,, wlang limutan awkei! thanks for being a part of my life,,

and sorry kung na ka offend ako!
dun frget iloveyou all!

read eka's post ito ung link: http://eka0702.multiply.com/journal/item/2/3j4_07-_08

star. .

2008-04-25T22:51:00.001+08:00

pieCeS oF ME. .

2008-02-16T19:34:00.000+08:00

i just don't understand what i feel. .
i really don't know what i want. .
i guess everything, everyone around me makes it more complicated. .

i'm learning to live my life away from hate,,

am i moody? duh of course im not.

i used to be a happy heart..

i really don't know what happened..
i just woke up one day walking away from happiness..

IM CONFUSED! IM TIRED!

fu*k im getting nowhere

im hearing that song again. .

"if destiny decided i should look the other way, then the world would never know the greatest story ever told" . .

cAn't fiNd thE pErfeCT giFt. .

2007-12-22T19:18:00.000+08:00

i've been strolling the mall for so many weeks now
but i still can't find the perfect gift for LOUIE(bebeh q),, ehehe

aww christmas is fast approaching and i have no idea what to give HIM?, ,

somebody help me please?. .

2007-12-13T21:49:00.000+08:00

Bernice, your wedding wish is to Let Love Rule

Of course you want to be married in a gorgeous location in a fabulous dress! But when it comes your wedding, what's most important to you is spending time with the people you care about. After all, this is an occasion that honors love, respect, and commitment between people, so it's no surprise that you also want to celebrate the people who helped you get there.You're probably a wedding planner who likes to ask for advice when making the bigger decisions, and you're not afraid to delegate duties to close friends and family. You see this as everyone's celebration, so it's of utmost importance to you that everyone feels welcome and a part of the festivities. And that's how happily ever after begins.

Bernice, in your Cinderella story, you'd get to Topple Your Evil Stepsisters

Whether you're battling evil stepsisters, arguing against an unfair grade, or trying to put a bully in their place, one thing's for sure — you fight for the underdog. Let's face it: The world's not always fair. But you, more than others, know you can help make a difference.So whether you're leading a rally cry, starting a new club, or just welcoming the new girl in school before the mean kids get a chance, you've got a strong sense of what's right and wrong and are armed with the smarts to fight for justice. So roll up your sleeves, Cinderella. You might not always feel like people notice your efforts, but deep down everyone knows you're the real belle of the ball.

Bernice, your music match is an Edgy Rock 'n' Roller

You don't need to be able to rock out on a guitar to have something in common with your musical match. Like sassy rocker Avril Lavigne, you've got a feisty and independent spirit that lets you march to the beat of your own drummer. And it's certainly no secret that you like to speak up and say what's on your mind.Whether you're hanging at the skate park, the mall, or the big game, you manage to bring a spicy flavor that's all your own. Maybe you've got your own funky flair for fashion. Or perhaps your interests and ambition set you apart. Whatever it is, you're a trendsetter who's sure to make waves on your way to the top. And what could be cooler than that?

2007-12-13T21:34:00.000+08:00

i've answered this tests on tickle. . hehe

WHAT'S yOUR HOLIDAY THEME SONG?

Bernice, your holiday theme song is White Christmas

Looks like you might be the sentimentalist in the crowd. You, more than others, revel in the nostalgia of the season. Some may think it's a little bit sappy, but you can't help it if you feel all gushy at the first sight of snow, the scent of evergreens, or the first airing of It's a Wonderful Life.You're one who picks up on traditions, and you probably like to pass them on, as well. That ornament over there, we bet it has a good story attached to it. Truth is, Santa himself probably couldn't spread as much Christmas spirit as you're capable of. While others are mired in materialism, you keep the holiday's true meaning closer to your heart. So keep on dreaming of a white Christmas with every Christmas card you write. May your days be merry and bright. And may all your Christmases be white.

friends. .

2007-12-10T16:07:00.000+08:00

aww i was really touched for what my friends told me,, we had our 6 hours vacant and all we did was talk, laugh and everything. .
i love my friends really!

rona, anton and gel. .
thanks for being there for me whenevr i need a friend. .

having those true friends in ur life? hahaha
u will xurely enjoy that 6 long hours of *tambay*

kilig moment__

i've received an email from my baby. .
i miss him xoo much,,
i'm gonna die! i knew it i'm gonna die!! hahaha. .

i'll be waiting for him. .

hey there delilah you'll be good and don't you miss me
two more years and you'll be done in school
and i'll be making history like i do. .
you know it's all because of you
we can do whatever we want to. .

sad xmas. .

2007-12-09T21:25:00.000+08:00

iM xOo sAD. . hMmm

xMas Lyts eVriweR
xMas caROLs
d sMeLL oF xMAs. .

iTs mAkiNG mE sAad. .

cAN't bE wiTH hIM diS cHristMas. .

love. .

2007-12-08T21:03:00.000+08:00

it's been said that sometimes love is just a force of habit,,
a product comming from a little getting used to,,
simple and raw as it may seem
but actually when you think of it, isn't it always painful once you lose what you used to have?
and the simplest habits are always the hardest things to runaway from. .

aww im missing my *life* xoo much. .

^without you it's hard to survive. .

national library

2007-12-08T20:28:00.000+08:00

NATIONAL LIBRARY

i woke up at 6am this morning coz i am excited to do our research work at the national library. . I'ts my first time there (and i didn't sleep) ehehe

i hate libraries, whenever i try to read go into a library i always fall asleep. .
i dunno why? maybe because it is. .
quiet
and cold

hehehe. .

bout my library trip? nah. .

we didn't got the chance to borrow nor read anything. .
(nobody told us that we need a reg.form for that)

aww but atleast i got to see the national library ehehe. .

it looks old
it smells old

but it is indeed a house of history and great stories. .

can't wait for my next visit
and for my first book. . (xurely read it) hehehe

tata!

my new blog account. .

2007-12-08T19:05:00.000+08:00

here it is guys. . made it!
thanks to *finella* for teaching me on how to edit this template thing. .

xoo im back into business. .

ill be posting a lot ehehe. .

expect me to be very observant ehehe yes i am. . hehe

hope to hear from yah!!

leave a comment on my tagboard. .

smooccchhheeesss